In our recent time, people often set criteria or preference on whom to care about. We are very ideal when it comes to that; just like on the movies, when the perfect guy and the perfect girl meet and would live their happily ever after – and we just so wanted that exact same scenario in our life! Some wanted to have a guy who’s 6 feet tall, with a pair of pretty eyes to melt their heart away when he stares at her, or a six jam packed abs to knock her of her feet; or a girl whose stat are as comparable as that of sexiest woman alive or some one who’s as appealing as Aphrodite – but little do they realize, when it comes to love, you can never be too specific who to love.
I was constantly was looking for something both superficially and underneath from all the people I went out with. Some were too good to be true that would make you think twice if you’ll ever get into the plunge with them and some were too impossible to see yourself with them because of their childishness or whatever. Of the people I recently met, there is this some one that made me go beyond what I want. No, this person may not be perfect, at least not on the physical aspect nor on the personality, but I didn’t have control on it! It made me realize that once you catch the disease, all of your preferences will be put into none sense! The disease of love is something I can never seem to understand all these years knowing and living about it. Once you catch it, you’ll never know what’s coming. It was a dilemma to me the first time I realize that I was going beyond what I wanted. But then again, as days pass by, it was becoming beyond my control and I finally gave up trying to control it. If there is something that would make you go beyond what you want, then therefore, it really means a lot. You’ll go beyond what you want, what you prefer and what you’ve always day dreamed about. The next thing you’ll know, you’re just so lost inside.
The striking thing that I recently learned in the field of this very complicated thing called dating and love – or whatever you wanted to call it – is that you can never be sure that all would flow into the way you simply want them to flow. My heart was once again run off by a raging train. There were no early warning device, no alerts, and no nothing at all. And what’s worst was that I wasn’t expecting a dead end from something I really believed that could work out from all of these years of wanting to finally find what I lost years back. I tried to swim the deep waters, and I think I drowned because I wasn’t able to check its depth before I plunged in. This recent experience hit me straight, realizing that even the innocent creature in the world can be cruel, or even the prettiest rose even have thorns. It’s like seeing a beautiful flame, and I was so deceived by the warmth of the light, and I just wanted to be so near it but I just got caught in its bright and warm flame!
Lesson learned from this experience is that you can never dictate fate on who to give you, on who to love you or who you are to love, for who ever comes your way would sometimes be the least that you expect to come at the most unexpected moment and may do the unexpected thing. You can never too choosy who to care about and who would break your poor heart.
October 9, 2009
5:19 AM
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