Swoosh!

Long time no post! and miss my blog... Many things had happen the past few weeks. And definitely, it's tiring. Eversince the classes started, everything I'm all about is my lectures, my anatomy and physiology tests, my Political Science discussions... blah... blah... blah... But know what, I'm enjoying them! I enjoy being tired..(I know I'm being Hedonistic to myself...) It's not all the time I'm feeling in the mood to study and such, not till' laziness strikes and creates CHAOS!!!!!! Perhaps, from the 1st week the classes started till now, it had been few times I felt lazy, but thank God I didn't failed any quizzes(knock on wood..). I'm just too fraustrated in getting a perfect score in Health Ethics... Everytime we have a quiz, it's just so happen I always didn't studied my lessons, and believe me, if you were only in my place, you'll tell yourself the quiz is just easy... I hope all my fellow batch mates would enjoy this Academic year! hope all of us passes and could keep up with the grades we're maintaining! By the way, thank for all the people who came for my bday! even for those who didn't but remembered my birthday!

The Jeepney Ride,,,~

I was in the jeepney yesterday. There were two people, sitting close with one another. The guy talked to her, I can see in their eyes as they looked each other, they're inlove. They have something sparkling their eyes, it's like an unexplained joy. The girl in reply answered with a soft voice and a humble smile and I could read her lips saying I love you. Then the guy held her head to his shoulders, as well as her hand into his. Then a bliss of dejection came to me. Sad but true, I was once had that mysterious magic in me. The feeling that nothing would seperate me with that person that I love. But little did I knew then that the person whom I had love for so long and gave my life just left me, left me alone. What's the most funny thing is that it had been a while since that person left, here I am, still thinking about her. Her smile, that sweet voice, her soft hands, her mesmerizing eyes.. I just miss her so bad.. but I can't do anything. She's out of my reach now. As the jeepney stopped and I went down, I, for the last time looked and smile to those two lovers and they simply smiled back at me.. It was just then that I noticed that they have a wedding ring in their fingers. They're married. And I'm happy for them. It's a mission accomplish for them being able to find that right one that would make each of them happy for the rest of their life. I hope she'd come home someday...

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GUYS, punta kaio ha?

my FIRST DAY FUNK!!

"Let's do the funk, let's do the first day funk!!!"
YO!!!! (nyahaha!!)

My vacation days are over, and a new semester had started! No big deal for others but for me, it's means no more "easy going" way of studying and staying out late for my tv series (Oh gosh, I'll miss watching Nip/Tuck and Smallville..huhu..) now that we have 3 major subjects,or rather make it 4(Related Learning Experience~which is by the way 4 and half hours straight, Primary Health Care~2 and half hour, Anatomy and Physio~3 and half hours and Health Ethics~I aint sure of the duration) .. it's also our last summer for the next three years to come in our course. If really given the chance and capacity to study more, I would wanted to take up medicine proper and hopefully become a pedia or a surgeon...(That is if I could take it to study some more and if there's no more job opportunities left in this WORLD for nurses????)But who knows right? (all things come from visions and aspirations... libre lang naman ang mangarap)

As for my first day, I could describe it into two words, first, overwhelming... It feels good to know that some students know you either by face or name (for crying out loud,,, WHO COULD EVER FORGET MY WEIRD NAME!!!! It's a fact that the more weirder your name is, the more people would remember your name! HA! and I have proven that to myself.. ) eventhough you don't know them. Even my clinical instructors (what we call our R.N. teachers) know me for having been participating to such activities and seminars last academic year. (at least, a good way to start a new year!!!!). and also it's nice to see some old friends and classmates as well as meet new classmates. Lastly, it's overwhelming for me coz a friend approached me and told me she reads my blog.. (HI JEAN IF YOU EVER HAPPEN TO READ THIS POSTING!~ and also to all other people out there who takes time to read!tanx!!!!) The other way to describe my first day is that I feel like I'm in a roller coaster ride that's about to pass through the curves and rigid slopes of a long track! I'm not expecting our lessons to be easy, but I'll take it as a challenge, a challenge that I hope all of us can over come! (better hold on tight!!! I know with the right study habits and time management, we can over come this things!) Always keep in mind that if there's hard work and initiative with anything else we do in this world , success is surely within our reach! Goodluck to all of us!!!!!!!!!!!

hmmm????

Qoute that I recieved earlier:

#$Sabe ng madami,
"Kung mahal mo ang isang tao, maghihintay ka kahit gaano katagal."
Sabi ko naman,
"Kahit umalis ako kung mahal din nia ko,
gagawa xa ng paraan..
pra bumalik ako.$#

>>Being the one who was left behind, still I can't take away the love I feel for that person. Few months from now, and it'll be almost a year when that person broke up with me. Heard that person's having one "great single life" as what that person had always told me, and here I am, still inlove. I've done some things I can to get that person back, but it just seems, that person doesn't love me anymore.. It's a fact, that person doesn't love me anymore. It just pains me. For years, I had tried to hold on no matter what comes our way, then just out of the blue, bahm! It's just so sudden. But a true love never EVER gives up. and I believe in that. It also doesn't keeps track on what sacrifices it had made. It'll always stay around.. Though I know, that person's not coming back, I can't deny the fact that somewhere in me, I'm still hoping that that person would. Something in me still believes that I'll still see a day when that person's with me in a one fine day. I don't know what's ahead of me, I'll leave the answer to fate.....

BEST SLEEP EVER!!!

Woke up today at round 4am. And I slept yesterday at around 5pm. I came from the university hospital to have my medical exams and thank God it didn't took me that much long to finish. It seems to me that for the first time, I slept for about 12 hours! Record breaking!!! (wink*) Then I woke up, my parents were about to leave the house for their medical exams in Manila. They'll be back tomorrow coz' they'll be visiting Uncle Larry (remember the British guy I'm talking about??) and his family in QC. Now, I'm left with my brothers and our nanny. I'm still sleepy right this moment, but I'll be cutting the grass at our garden later, mom told me to do so since our nanny seems ill, and besides, I don't think she can carry the grass cutter with her thin body.. (JOKE!) But seriously, she seems weak. Heard my lola, who has a brain tumor, had a difficulty in breathing. I'm dying to see her. If only I could leave the house right now to see her, I will certainly go there, but I can't leave my brothers alone at home with our nanny.

I want to do somethings before I finally go back to school, actually this is my last summer (coz' we'll be having no more summers till our 4th year.. just sembreaks..) I wan't to sing out loud with my friends in a videoke, I wan't to see how my friend's baby (my godchild) is doing and at the same time, know if she'd be going back to school, go partying with my cousins again next weekend, spend some time taking care of my granny, go and get drunk (I refused to my dad last time to drink when he asked me last week coz' it's against my diet.. alcohol really make your tummy bulge!!!) and swim (though it's already raining..). I still have a week left before schooling starts. And I just hate my schedule. One and half hour for our lunch break is too much for me. Perhaps an hour is just fine, but adding another half hour? What shall I do with that! But anyway, I just hope that I won't get bored and sleepy that much with some of our subjects.. Imagine, RLE (Related Learning Experience) is on Mondays and Fridays which is within a whooping 4 hours and 30 minutes! DARN THAT's WAY TOO LONG DON't YOU THINK???!!! And another is My Anatomy and Physiology class which also is 3 hours and 30 mins., 2 times a week.. I just hope that my biological clock (accdg to psychology, it is the automatic response in our body that would wake us even without an outside force like alarm clocks, noise, etc..) could easily adapt to my sched. (sana lang talaga..). I'm "somehow" ready I could say. I prefer doing something in school even if it would make me so busy rather than staying at home, playing xbox, surfing the net, and watching tv all day long. But if there's one thing that I will certainly miss about the vacation, maybe it's the sleeping time. You can sleep as long as you want, and sleep whenever you want.. I'LL CERTAINLY MISS IT!!!

Silence and Peace

Silence and Peace

I want to be alone
I want to escape
From all the pleasure and enjoyment
The world could offer
From all the noise that the world have created
I want total silence
And stay away from the noise
Created by the cries of the poor
Who have nothing to eat
Of the young people
Abused by others' greed
Of the wives and the children
Battered by their Environment
And the society...
...Of the sick and hurt
who cannot be cured
...Of the inmates and victims
who seek justice
But how?
How can I be able to hear their cries
...Of the poor, and the young
of the victims of injustice
of the people, of the world
I want to be alone...

FINAL STRETCH!!!

This summer is quite boring because of the fact that I don't go out that much, at the same time, relaxing, because I have a chance to stay at home and sleep as much as I want.. (except when my mom keeps on nagging me early in the morning..) I had lots of time to watch movies that I want, play xbox or tantra all day long, play my guitar and piano anytime I want.. I'm going to miss these stuff when class starts again.. Especially now, we''ll be having 3major subjects.. (anatomy and physiology, RLE, and Primary Health Care...) I just hope I won't get grades lower than 85.. That's my target grades as always, and luckily for the past 2semesters, I was able to "somehow" attain them.. too bad my average weren't enough for the scholarship grant.. nwy, as what my mom says, for as long as I do my best, it's just ok..

This past few days, I go out everyday, either with my friends, my siblings, MYSELF,, I'm quite tired like right now, my head still aches, I ought to go back to sleep when I got up a while ago, but I thought of my parents leaving early to check their visas so I went downstairs to check 'em up but they left even before I got up. Then my brothers asked me to cook for them crepes for breakfast so I didn't had the chance to go back to bed. Later, I'll be going out again to buy new xbox cds.. the RPG i'm playing is almost finished that's why I have to buy a new one, at least to have something new to play for the next few days I have left for vacation.

I'm really enjoying the last few days of my summer.. I've been going out for the past few days. Saturday - since my dad just got home, we went out shopping for and grocery (twice that same day; one in the morning and one in the evening), then Sunday-of course family day, we went to Church afterwhich we went to one of my fave coffee depots, then to my lola's house (as usual..). Monday approached, my parents invited their long time British friend and his family over to a resort somewhere here and spent the whole day soaking in the pool.. Tuesday, since I really anticipated the episode 3 of the Starwars series, I decided to go out with my brothers and watch it. Mom and Dad went in Manila and reported to their company's office for their next contract. Wednesday, well, I watched movie again but this time with my friends. I spent the whole day with them.. Thursday,, - today-, later, as I've said, I'll be going out again to buy new xbox cds, (hope they're not as expensive as that of what my dad bought.. imagine, 25$ for just a Spiderman2 original cd??!!!) and I'm planning to visit Carmelite coz' I wasn't able to go for few weeks now and I had broke my Wednesday sched for a visit there. Tomorrow, Friday, my cousins and I are ready to dance the night away, we'll be going out and partying! I'll sleep over their house.. then Next week, I''ll be going to a friend's house fiesta celebration.. for the next days, I don't know what's in store for me.. One things for sure, I'm going to enjoy this last few days before all the lousy lectures of Anatomy, those intense discussions etc., etc.. ADIOS!!!!!!!!!

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My dad arrived few days ago for a vacation for 3months here in the Philippines. And yesterday, they invited some of their friends over to spend some time together. Particularly, it was Tito Larry (who's a British by the way.) and Tita Lou. While in the car on the way to the resort, Tito Larry asked me what course I'm taking up, and I told him Nursing. The first thing that he had thought is that I want to go overseas that's why I'm taking up that course but I strongly told him that it wasn't really my plan. I answered him, "No, I don't want to go overseas.. I wanna take up medicine after my nursing course, unless of course my dad wouldn't allow me to. I'd rather stay here in my country than be alone abroad at the same time earn a lot. Never mind the long years I would be spending in studying.." He then answered me that I'm just one of the "VERY" few (take note of the qoutations) people that would say that. I became sad after he said that. I just realized and asked myself, is this the same perception of foreigners to all Filipinoes? Are we that desperate that other countries sees us as if all people who are trying to finish their studies all wanted to go abroad and leave our country?

Ok, I would admit, my parents do work abroad and they have their own reasons. Reasons that I think are similar to other Filipinoes who are working abroad. And primarily, it is because they pay far more better salaries abroad than in our own country. My parents are working not as an Engineer or a doctor or whatsoever work that requires titles and degrees, but rather musicians.. Yep, you read it right, musicians. But don't ever get me wrong, I'm proud of them because for years, they have given us good, or should I say, GREAT life (note the superlative "GREAT"). My dad is an undergraduate of HRM and my mom is a graduate of Business Mgmt. at the same university I am going to right now, but they work as musicians abroad. Thanks to the talent of my grandparents (who were also musicians on the father's side), I was never sent to public school ever in my entire life.

Would you believe that even for applying as a janitor here in our country, they want graduates from college? I could remember last summer, to be able to realize how hard to earn money and to have my first summer job, I tried applying in one of the fastfood chains in our country, they want college level applicants. Why college level applicants when all you've got to do is to serve food? The work is a bit tiring physically and mentally, but guess what, the salary is just a whooping 21.00 PHP per hour!!! I could remember my dad telling me that in America, it's $5/hr. My point here is that this is one of the reasons why we can't blame people going abroad to work. BUT not all.. Not me. If only possible, I wouldn't want to leave our country. (But who could tell what's going to happen in the future?) Anyway, I just REALLY hope that this image that most people from other countries entails with us Filipinoes would eventually change (just like the perception of my dad's British friend). Millions of our fellowmen sacrifices themselves to go abroad to earn more than that of what they could earn here in our own country. They take their chances in the hope of giving their loved ones better life, but we can never blame that.. It's really true that Filipinoes are clever,skillfull and intellegent, but reality bites, some use it to aggravate others in a way that instead of helping their fellow Filipino to have a better life, they worsen it. Thus, rich people becomes richer and poor people becomes more poorer.. What happened to our country?? WAKE UP people!!!

DETENTION!!!!

Summer is almost over and just a few weeks from now, classes will start again. 1year down and 3more to go,(unless I will be continuing medicine that is...nothings certain anyway..). This past few days is like detention in school only it is here at home. The phone line is dead, so as the internet line is interupted, you can't play xbox as long as I want like before, neither Tantra on line, I also ran out of load on my mobile phone and not even one in our neighboring stores sells one (SUN kasi..), the guitar amplifier overheated (I forgot to unplugged the switch.. dumb me...), I can't talk well at home lately, my mom and I had petty fight and all I can do is be in my room almost the whole day! Perfect! Now it's sounds like I'm really in detention right? But the thing is I didn't do a single bad thing for me to be punished like this.. I hope when dad arrives this weekend from Australia, things would get better, especially the mood swings of my mom.. really irritates me...

A quiet night at the shore…

Beyond this endless horizon,
All I see is darkness everywhere,
Feels like my existence is without a reason,
Every breathing moment is almost out of air.

I walked through this seashore,
Longing for you; the one I adore,
Yearning for that voice that would take away all my worries,
Craving even for a trace of your grin.

In this silent place,
I could hear my heart's voice raise!
It screams out for your loving,
In my dreams you I made myself believe you’re soon coming,
I can’t fool my mind, I know my heart’s only lying.

The memory of you in my head always lurks,
Those promises of forever that your lips then uttered,
That promise of love to me you mutter,
I know now it's gone, and all these to you don't matter.

It has always amazed me how to you I deeply fell,
"I still love you" this much I could tell,
I know my heart just wouldn't stop inspite of this woe,
even if I know there's no more love you feel,
I just really hope by the end of this poem you know,
My heart won't stop loving you and it'll always will.

PGMA to be blamed??

(From Ch2's Correspondents)

When you see Filipino people on TV news complaining about their economical status in life and blaming it all to the president, would you consider them rational? Kailangan bang isisi ang lahat sa presidente ultimo ang pag-taas ng gas? Hindi ba parang mali? Maybe, in a way or another, the president has something to do with the decision making, but it's not SOLELY her fault why their lives are miserable as it may seem for them! For me, they are being so unreasonable. They shouldn't be blaming it all to the president! Let's face the fact that many of our fellow Filipinos are very lazy. They want their lives to be better yet they don't work for it as hard as they could, all they do is to blame others for what they are going through, for this instance, the president. Many people from provinces think that Manila is a city of full oppurtunities, they are hoping that by moving from their provinces to Manila, their fortune in life will change. No wonder it is the most populated city in our country where poverty is one of the common problem along with the high crime rates and heavy traffic jam everyday.. Anyway, going back to what I was saying, according to one of the Political analyst that they had interviewed on the documentary, eversince Aquino and all other following presidents, our country is not developing, rather, it turns out the opposite. We indeed have colorful political history like that of the People Power Revolution that amazed all other neighboring countries(even the far ones), but now, where is it? We fought so hard to win our democracy and independence from the hands of the foreing occupants and dictatorship. In our time today, kapwa Pilipino laban sa kapwa Pilipino na ang nangyayari. An example of this is the corruption that occurs behind our government, and you ask where does the money come from, sadly, it's from the pockets of the tax payers. It's like a big chain of reaction. Filipinos pay high taxes, The government gives millions and billions of money for road projects, blah blah blah, Then here comes the great politicians who were corrupting the money that the people paid, so as projects where those money should be utilize will be postponed because of bankruptcy, and once again, another failed project and all to be blamed is the head of the government, the president.. Hay,, if only people will help each other, perhaps, our country could catch up with the other Asian countries or even the whole world. We are people gifted with great wisdom and knowledge, but sad to say, some people, wheteher politicians or businnessmen or just an ordinary factory worker, don't use them in a good way. If we still don't cooperate with our government and abide it's law, the price of oil will continously be more expensive, public roads will be sold to private firms (a good example of this is the NLEX and the Coastal Road sold to a private MALAYSIAN firm..), everything will be more expensive! "One thing leads to another".. good thing to another good thing; and so as bad thing to another bad thing. IF you're one of the people who blames the president why your life is like that, why the price of everything goes sky-rocketing, C'mon, it's not entirely her fault, (e khit naman siguro si FPJ pa ang nanalo, it'll not change a thing, perhaps, IT COULD BE WORSER!!!). Maybe the main key to solve the problems of our country is COOPERATION and DISCIPLINE.. I know it's not easy at all, but if we just take one step at time, who knows?

SumMeR wiT fRenDz

We're in Isla de Galeon..

ReCaP!!!!!

My freshmen year is quite nice for me. I had a good start for my next few more years in college. Well, in terms of my subjects, I'm thankful that they're not that tough yet!(haha!) I had enjoyed my Philosophy classes in which I really learned something!, my biochem classes(gosh! my fave lesson is about the Nucleic Acids! I was quite surprised that I got almost a perfect score without studying that much! tanx' to the very clear discussion of my Prof.! UNFORTUNATELY, I think almost all of my classmates aren't listening... Grrr... As always...) and also my Zoology(it was like an introduction to our anatomy subject but the anatomy is more sophisticated and well-detailed when it comes to the particular systems or parts of the body.). If there's a subject that I least like, perhaps it's the Filipino. Some of my friends to whom I had told them that I hate it would say ,"Filipino lang yan' noh!!!". But what can I do! my Professor in that subject gives very hard QUIZes!!! even though sometimes you're really prepared for the quiz, then out of the blue, the type of quiz you expected isn't the one that she'll give! gosh! and another thing, my professor really expects too much. Especially from me, that I don't know why.. Anyway, I also enjoyed my PE classes, particularly the ballroom dancing! HAHA! (We WON!!!!) Many were quite surprised seeing that I could dance.. (Hidden talent!hihi!)

One thing that makes this past 2semesters good is that I gained a lot of new friends, in or out the room. I wasn't also expecting that I would be voted as the president of my class at the beginning of the 1st Sem. That somehow paved way of me becoming officers of different organizations. Like the English Club, CYO, and COR.. Last Febuary, I was also SUPPOSED to run for the Student Council of our College, But I didn't have enough guts to do so, to be honest, I was quite afraid of losing. And that I might not be able to meet the expectation of people round me and it has also something to do with my heart broken again... Anyway, I still have few more years ahead of me. And in those years, who knows?

A month from now, a new semester is ahead of me. I got all my scheds and subjects, and I'll be taking up my Anatomy and Physiology (3 and half hours straight!!!! 10:30-2:00pm; 2days a week..), Primary health Care (to be frank, I don't know what's is all about!!!), Related Learning Experience, and I also have Politics and Philippine Consti. (I'm wondering what's the connection?? it interest me though..) etc.. etc.. GOSH!!! some of my classdays will be from 7am till 5pm! I'm excited that I will be busy! It's better than staying at home and thinking of your fraustrations over someone that eventually would lead to blaming myself and asking myself questions that I don't know what to answer! HA! In addition to my enthusiasm in this coming semester, the heavens heard my prayers.. Cause Kei is still my classmate!! At least, I have an inspiration despite of my despair over the other one.. (I don't want to talk about it! I know wherever that person is, masaya na xa...) They say that when God closes the door, He opens a window... That's what is in that window..

I hope everything will be smooth sailing through the coming months. Good luck to all....

blah// blah,,, blah....

Once again, I'm here, seated infront of my computer desk listening to Mariah's cd that my dad gave me. Few days from now he'll soon be home! And another day has passed by.. Life is passing by in a blink of an eye (speaking of eye, I got an eye irritation on my right eye. I have sore eyes!), and you'll never notice, soon you'll be dying.. Sad but true right?

Just yesterday, my brother celebrated his 11th bday and we went in the cemetery, because it was also my great grandma's bday. My family and some relatives had this "picnic", if I must say,. Anyways, it's nice to see how some people still get to remember dead people's bdays. I had few memories with my greatgranma (on my mom's side) when I was still at 4 i guess? I could also remember that day she was buried, I asked my lola why she slyping so long? and I was told that she was already tired and she has to rest for good. Ofcourse, that time, I wasn't aware that she's gone for good. ( I could remember Nicholas say in City of Angels that "People die when their bodies give up...") And just before we left the cementery, I even asked for my lola to by me a popsicle.

Have you ever been amazed how children are gifted with such innocent intelect? if ever given a chance to be like that forever, would you rather take it? or not? If were asked, perhaps I would. SO that I won't be feeling so much pain from loving someone, so that I wouldn't be put up in so much responsibilities, and all I'll care about is my food, my toys.. But in contrary, perhaps, I woudn't take it. If a person will not nurture his being, he'll be stucked and he'll never learn things that he should. Life will not on. I'm just amazed by how does a person's mind, from a complete state of Tabularasa, be enhanced to an intellect with such power.Power to think, to act, to rationalize. to see things in different way? and to discover what's beyond. Isn't it a wonder how people grow? But they could either grow for the betterment of their being or the opposite. I think this is what makes us very different from all other beings in this world. We are gifted the tendency of enhancing our mental capacities and all other factors that completes our being. Then again, there are those people who don't use their gifts in their lives.

My mentors,,,

Rarely do students appreciate their teachers, and some even don't care about them. But for this last academic school year, I just thought that I am lucky enough to have such professors and instructors, even though some of them give us hard times in our academics.. Some students see a good teacher if he gives TOO much considerations, doesn't sets up short deadlines, doesn't gives loads of paperworks and not to mention tests. But in my perspective, a good teacher cannot be measured by what his title is nor the difficult lessons and hard to understand lectures that he gives to his students, not also by the grades he bestows to his students. Rather, it is what he teaches his students outside of the four corners of the classroom. Don't miss the point of what I'm trying to tell, but ofcourse, the long discussions that we must be attentively listening to and the hard questionaires we must answer correctly really makes a big impact to our grades which reflects our academic performances. Numbers that in a way, would be the basis of our future, or even our career. But grades are just numbers. There is a distinction between merely knowing the facts and knowing how to apply them. Knowledge is very different from wisdom but both are significantly important. How would you make use of knowlegde if you don't know how to make use of them in the real world and in contrary how would you make your wisdom be put into action if you don't know the facts?

There are many criterias that tell how good a teacher is, but for me, one of this is being able to impart their students with something that can be learned not only inside the four-corners of the classroom but also outside where the real world is at and being able to put into actions the facts that the professors and instructors had taught. And that is what real learning is all about.

Mr. Brian Roy Sunga
>1st Semester: Cultural Anthropology
>2nd Semester: Philosophy of Man
Former Semenarian turned teacher! Most of his girl students have crush on him. (cute daw). Some may also find him masungit. Since he was my teacher for 1whole year, I could say, last semester, he was very considerate to my classmates but "maybe" because of the abusive behavior that they showed to him, he became more strict, but I think they, or should I say, WE deserve it. (HEY!don't get me wrong, I'm not like them! maybe at times.. but not at all) He gives hard quizes. Imagine almost 7 to 10 pages of hand-outs and he'll just give 10 to 20 item quiz. Anyway, those quizes are quite challenging for me. In a way, he's friendly. I've learn a lot from him I could say!

Mrs. Remedios Gonzales M.A.T.
>2nd Semester: General Zoology
I am proud to be a student of this lady! Very intelligent! and KIND! A graduate of B.S. Bio at UST and in the same University, she earned her masteral's degree as a CONSTANT scholar! (o diba??) Some students find her boring, but for me, certainly not! If only they'd listen very well that is. Another fascinating fact about her is that in the age of 60+, she still is very active, physically and mentally! A down to earth kind of person, very considerate, and unlike other teachers and professors, she gives those students who doesn't do much good in their academics a chance to catch up even those who don't mind their studies very well. Last time I saw her and spent time to chat with her for a while, she was pleased to tell me (the same goes with me) that she is a relative! She's my grandma I guess? I think her husband is a cousin of my grand ma on my mother's side (De Guzman-Gonzales Clan). It's a small world after all!!!

Mr. Jay Pajarilio
>1st Semester: General Psychology
He's a good friend and a good teacher! He doesn't care much about grades. Cause for him, grades are just merely numbers! (AS what I you had read a while ago) He's someone you could tell all about yourself! and I'm glad to be a good friend with him. He knows so much about me. Just a few days ago, together with some of my other friends, we drove to Dila-Dila (Somewhere in Guagua I guess??) for a fiesta with him! such a nice guy.

Mrs. Kerry Jane Ruadil
>1st Semester: Inorganic Chemistry
She is a very witty person for me! One of the most considerate instructors I had these Semester. What I like about her is that she wouldn't skip into another chapter or lesson knowing her students couldn't catch up with it, even though it would take more of her time, what matters to her is that her students fully understand what she teaches. She also gives us tutorials before we have our major exams even to those who even understands the lessons already!

Mr. Reynaldo Bundalian Jr. R.M.T.
>2nd Semester: Organic Chemistry
One of the Board Topnotchers of our University having his name published in the hall of fame of the top notchers that our University had produced over the past years! One of the interesting facts about him is that he entered college at the age of 14! YUP! FOURTEEN!!!! Would you imagine that at the age of 19, he was already a Registered Medical Techonologist and teaching students who are almost at his same age. (What a genius!) and he also went into the same school where I went to in high school,CS. He likes ketchup very much! (just like me! but he's more addicted to it than me!) He's cool! and even let my classmates eat whatever they like during the dicussion. He's not the typical teacher you'd meet along the corridor! The first time you'll see him, if not only for the uniform of the faculty members, you wouldn't notice that he's a teaching personnel! He looks so young for his uniform. Also very considerate teacher that he always extends our deadline for different projects and paper works for the sake of "SOME" of my abusive classmates~.. One of the crush ng bayan teachers of the students.

Ms. Patty D. Victoria
>2nd Semester: Organic Chemistry Laboratory
I really don't know much about her to be frank. But I know for sure that she is kind and gentle. Even her voice would tell you so. A perfect picture of a Maria Clara I could say. But with all my respect, she's beautiful in and out. At times, she also runs out of patience for my ANGELIC classmates! Who wouldn't do so?

Mrs. Virginia Bautista
>1st Semester: English 01
A graduate from U.P.Diliman (I think most of the professors and instructors are from our University are from UPD, Esp. the Educ dept.), so it gives you a hint that she's quite intellegent! They say, and I could also say, a good teacher and a perfect mom as what our other instructors and professors would say. There are so many times that my classmates outran her patience but when she really got fed-up, she punished those students and sent them out of the room for about a month. Mind you, this incident even went to the office of the dean where I was questioned! For having been the president of the class, my gosh! I was asked to talk to the dean, the College secretary, the Level coordinator, the OSAA, and even the parents of those students who were sent out. I was the mediator between her and my classmates. Perhaps she was right with what she had decided. Actually, before she made the decision, she asked for my opinion and I agreed that some of my classmates deserves to have an ultimatum! I just thought that it's about time to make them realize their faults.

Mrs. Pinky Lumba
>1st Semester: Algebra
The head of the Math Dept., Same as Ma'am Patty, I don't know much about her but she certainly is also one of the kindest and down-to-earth people that I met! She will never cease to great you with a smile upon her face!

SOAP OPERAs: WEAKness of Filipinos. SOmehow makes me irritated

First of all, to those who are fond of watching such tv dramas, whether local or foreign, I'm sorry and please don't hate me for writting this.. it's just an OPINION..

Soap Operas, melodramas, teleserye, fantaserye, what ever!

I suppose, almost every Filipino households are very fond of them, especially those who are included between the above average and poverty line. It's main viewers are often housewives, or even wives who just got home from office at evenings, mga kasama sa bahay (i'm not comfortable in calling them as house maids), and children. According to one of the local TV stations, these melodramas are really for those at home who have nothing more to do after cleaning the house, washing the dishes, doing their laundries or even after a hard day of work from the office. It is as if a "reward" for them. Having been raised in a typical Filipino family, I grew up with the people in our house watching such shows one after the other. It is already a part of our culture that many of us, through the years, have embraced. As a child, you don't have the right to watch what channel you want when the clock strikes at the time of the melodrama that everybody in the house waits for, or else, you'll be scolded or worst, be spanked by your mom in the buttocks! You cannot go outside for they won't allow you to play with your friends nor turn on the tv in the other room, they'll tell you that you're just wasting electricity! You have no other choice than to watch with them and go with the flow. Sometimes, it's even unfair, because after they watch and the TV is all yours, they'll tell you that you have to turn it off because the TV was running for almost the whole day!

Ok, I'll admit it, there was a time when I got hooked on to these TV melodramas. But it was THEN.. When I was still in grade school, When all the story plots of these series are very unique, when every new series looks new with the new casts and all. But again, it was way back THEN. If you'll notice nowadays, almost all other these melodramas have the same plots, the same conflicts,(Family members lost, Plastic surgery, Family Wealth, Rivalry, ETC.!) and ALSO, same OLD casts.. (Parang ang sarap sabihin, "Wala na bang iba???") Also include here the never ending COINCIDENCES that occurs one after the other that leaves the audience dropped-jaw! Not to mention the Foreign Melodramas On my own point of view, they are far more better than ours.Sad but true. It all started from the phenomenal Mari-MAr!!!!(AWW!)I could remember my whole neighborhood going crazy over it!) Followed by different Spanish teleseries dubbed into our own language. Then when a network launched the Asian Novelas (Be it Japanese, Chinese, Taiwanese, Indonesian, Korean, NAME IT!!) And it never stopped till' now! It was like a disease that has taken over the whole country!

Sometimes, when I sit down infront of the couch, with everyone at home (our kasama sa bahay, my two little brothers and my mom), I just wanna laugh at them whenever I see them moved by the drama scene from what they are watching! (for crying out loud! It's just a darn melodrama..) There was even a time that during our supper, they were talking about something/someone, that I thought it was the person we knew of, and I tried to join in with their conversation and suddenlly, they just laughed at me because I thought and talked of the wrong person(now the laugh was on me).

At times, I thought why does the story of the melodrama have to long, and very complicated. In some stories, even impossible. Why can't it be just as short as it can possibly be, or why can't the conflicts be solved by a simple conversation and agreements between the antagonist and the protagonist! This is the point where I thought of Soap Operas very irritating! They make the story LONG when they can make it SHORT! They make it COMPLICATED when they can make it so SIMPLE! Come to think of it? Isn't it irritating??

Anyway, this is just about my point of view, I'm sorry if you think I'm so rude in saying these things. But admit or not, I know you've observe that some of what I had said are true right? But mind you, I respect those people who are addicted on them. This is a democratic world right? And I think, I do understand why these soap operas keep on coming through the years. They have survived every breaking news that there was, or problems in our society that had occured. Maybe that's it! They are there to give entertainment to the people who needs time out from this very tiring world! Especially, our fellowmen! No wonder, they keep on embracing these Soap Operas, melodramas, teleserye, fantaserye, what ever!

FACT: Why is it called "SOAP opera"? Soap from the fact that they were originally often sponsored by soap manufacturing companies.

AT LAST!!!!!!!!!!

Ha! I had watched the season premiere of the Smallville and the Simple Life2.. I had been wating so long for this new episodes.. and it's all worth the wait.. Beforehand, I was also planning to ask my dad to buy me the whole collection DVD of the Smallville series but I just thought maybe it's more cheaper here. (instead I just asked him for a cowboy hat as a pasalubong,,, He's coming home on May. I was quite shock of the price of the leather hat! Wishin' I could have just asked for money.. anyway, thanks dad!) I like the episode of tonight's Smallville.. To be honest, I realized something with what I had watched. It was about how life went on with Clark Kent gone for several months and came back all of a sudden without his memories (including the pain he felt when Lana left for Paris..), with his dad in coma, Lois Lane, by the way, already appeared in this season as the cousin of the dead best friend of Clark, and well, Lana, has a new boyfriend back in Paris.. Clark has new powers in this season. (good thing I had watched the end episode of the last season..) He could fly now and could use his other powers.. Oh, forgot to mention the Luthers.. Lex has found a treasure that was stolen by the Kryptonian Clark (Lex didn't knew it was him) and Lionel (Lex's dad) is still in prison but I think in about few episodes, he'll soon be out. Tonight's episode ended up with Clark having his memory back, his dad recovering from the coma, and meeting Lois in a cementery telling her that Chloe is still alive and Lana discovering that she has this weird sign in her back (Kristin really has a compelling body!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). What's next? I don't know really... but I'm excited to know... It's really something to watchout for!

I'm not that emotional when it comes to such tv series or even in movies, but, I somehow could relate on how the story goes.. with Lana happy with his new boyfriend and Clark finally met Lois (he's real partner.) ( eventhough I think Tom Welling really looks perfectly with Kristin rather than the one who played the role of Lois.. anyway, I can't change the Superman story, I'm just a viewer..), it strucked me. it kinda hit me. It spoke to me in my head that simply life goes on. IT SHOULD go on inspite of the pain and hurt that had experienced by a person.

Charmed is also having their new season next Monday I suppose. I've been watching this series eversince I was in Grade 5 in the same channel! Along with Friends.. (I watched Friends in ETC.. Same channel where I watch Simple Life.) If ever you don't have any idea what is Simple Life all about, well it's more like the Extra Challenge.. Only the challengers don't change and turned out they're RICH!!! (it's not a fiction. In true Life, the two GIRLS are indeed wealthy being one of the top5 richest people on EARTH!!!!) I am pertaining to Paris Hilton and her bestfriend Nicole (both are beauty-and-such-a-brat!) It's like a road trip to different small towns of America along with thier PINK (yah, you read it right,, PINK!) pickup truck. They travel without any money, and they shouldn't make use of their wealth along the journey. In every episode, they go to a particular place and stay with a family and they should make money for them to spend. They try different jobs. Typical jobs that for them, having been raised up with a golden spoon in the mouth, are difficult.. Like tonight's episode, they tried to work in a parlor shop. Forgot to mention that they always quite mess up with the side line jobs that they get into..Poor man that had came into the parlor for a wax.. They stipped of his hairs painfully!! (aouch!) and they did a make over to a lady who, in the end, looked like a hooker and a rock star rather than a more lovelier woman. Anyway, they are funny and beautiful and humurous! It's something worth to watch!

It's 4/27/2005, and just 12:19:05 AM. Still it is early for me to go to sleep now. My usual sleeping time is 3am to 5:30am. but I should really try to sleep now because tomorrow I should be energetic enough cause I'm going out with my friends for an overnight at Subic and at prior to that I had promised my cousin that I would help her to audition for the Concert Chorus (which I had done last year and I got in but my mom didn't wanted me to go for it for I might not be able to focus on my studies.. but everything comes along with silver linings and in this case, I had more time for my other activities at school!). I should be up early tomorrow...

something that would make you laugh!!!!

SULAT NA NAPULOT DAW SA ISANG BAR SA MALATE NA NGAYON AY PINAGPAPASA-PASAHAN SA INTERNET.....

Marjie,
I am not surprise or wander why Dennis leave you.
Why?
What reason you can think about but you're very fat body. I thought before that Dennis only use me to his toy but sooner and later I'm realize that he really can't not beared or stomached to be with you anymore because at first, Dennis say he could not stand you're habit of making pakielam all his walks (lakad) and always calling to their house what he go home or this or that and then he say he get ashame to met iether in school or in his family and then asking you to exercise you're very very, very fat body but you hate it thoughth your the most preetiest girls he knows about what do you think you are "Beautiful Girl" of Jose Marie Chan even you are beautiful face to you think) you do not have the right to called me whatsoever or else different name one time or the other for the real purposed to insults my personality because I'm never call you names iether in the front of Dennis or in the backs of Dennis, but if you start already to calling me different name, I don't have any other choice but to call you other different name to like you are a PIG, FAT, OBSSED, OVERWIGHT, AND UGLY SHAPE girl. Shame to you're body for that is to a BUDING. You can't not blame Dennis for exchanging you to me because I am the more sexier than you when you look to us in the mirror. I'm repeat again that you are like Ike Lozada when she is a girl.
FROM: THE SEXIEST GIRL OF D.M.
P.S.: Yo say that I'm the bad breathe but who is Dennis want to kissed. Me or you? You or me? And the final is me.

"When it rains, It pours..."

For how many days now, I've been trying to sleep early as I could but then again, still I can't, it even got worse than I thought. I slept at usually past 12 like 1 or 2am, but now, I sleep at 5am.. Early isn't it? I just can't sleep.. I hope I'm not an insomiac person(but I think I am).. I slept at 4:00am watching the live coverage of the CNN on the conclave and the announcement of the new pope yesterday and my mom woke me up at 6:30am to drive for her to the market with my tita. So I drove, though a quarter of my mind's still soooo sleepy. Thank God nothing bad happened along the way but I know, I was not quite in the mood to drive coz' I feel so drowsy.. and after going to the market, I went back to sleep. 9:30-1:00pm, I slept, then ate lunch, and 2:30-7:00pm I slept again and just woke up because of the phone that rang beside my bed.. "What a lousy driver!" I thought myself...

Perhaps, I couldn't sleep well everynight maybe because of the things I don't want to think about much. Many questions, many things that I'm trying to avoid..

It rained a while ago. And I just thought, perhaps the rain could answer the questions of my mind, that even I don't know what are. So I went out, stared at the dome of darkness, I wanted to shout though.. but I can't. Instead, I just kept questioning the rain in silence and it just answered me through it's heavy raindrops, and several blows of wind. With every raindrop that fell from above, every raindrop seemed heavy. With every heavy drops that touched my skin, every heavy drop felt so cold. and With every drop that fell into the ground,
my heart could hear every heavy raindrop that shatters my heart into pieces. For 20minutes, it was all raindrops and light winds that eventually made my knees and lips somehow shiver but still I wasn't quite satisfied. Instead of giving answers, the rain and the wind just gave me far more deeper questions.. Uknown questions with yet unknown answers.. I never felt so cold like that, with nobody(/no body) to keep me warm and give me warmth.. with nobody to give me warmth.. I never felt so cold.. I never felt so alone... ; When it rains, it pours..

"With every raindrop that fell from above,
every raindrop seemed heavy.
With every heavy drops that touched my skin,
every heavy drop felt so cold.
and With every drop that fell into the ground,

my heart could hear every heavy raindrop that shatters my heart into pieces."

My thoughts on:

Merging the STATE and the CHURCH

Last night as I was watching TV, as I usually did whenever I can't sleep, I came across this local TV show and remembered that I had planned to watch it but then, I just forgot to remind myself. It also came into my mind that our instructor way back in High School had once raised this same question to us. As I was saying, naturally, because its a debate there are two panels that will contradict and defend their own reasons and statements. The panel which is in favor of merging the Church and the State is composed of TWO priest and a Congressman Miles Roces from the 3rd district of Manila, who I suppose was raised up from a family very attached to their faith. However, the other panel who were not in favor is comprised of Bro.E.Soriano ( I know you already know him!), Mr.Tulfo(the columnist, I think on PDI, but definitely not his brothers Erwin nor Ben, the other journalist.) and another politician and at the same time a pastor but I forgot his name.

I could say, they are all good, except for one. They all have a very concrete and reasonable statements that they all have defended. Actually, the one of them made me laugh at the same time, it really had made up my mind that somehow, he's at times "out of his league". I'm sorry guys who are a member of his congregation, but really, why couldn't he just put aside his personal issues with the "inglesia ni Manalo" as what he had called the other religious congregation mentioned for several times through out the whole session of the debate! I also noticed that, at times, some of the defenders are caught up in between, they wanna say no and yes at the same time.

If I were included in that debate, I wouldn't allow them to be merged. The records of our human history, in any part of this world, shows some very concrete evidences that these two essential part of our society are certainly immiscible. Both are important, but it can never be merged. A good example of this is the downfall of the Medieval Period. That time, Theocentrism was dominant. Everything was according to what the Church is saying and dictating and the political leaders are also the same people who leads the Church. They had tried to hold both offices, the Church and the State. Don't get me wrong that I'm an atheist or something(I am a Catholic okei?), but it's not the teachings of the Church that has gotten irrational and unjust through out the succeeding years of their dominance, it is the appointed leaders who become very abusive and corrupt. Yes, you read it right, CORRUPTion (which is a form of stealing.. one of the 10 commandments;<"walk your talk"-sir Guina from DLSU on our leadership seminar...>). Another was the time of the Spanish Era in our country. Spaniards have great respect to their Church ( and I believe that it was passed on to us) that's why they are much influenced by the Church Leaders which paved way in giving them authority over the towns and cities they govern. They are given more power to influence people and dictate to them what they are to do than those who are leaders of the towns and cities. Hence, with this unlimited authority, they became abusive ( "history repeats itself.."). It was just after the occupancy of the Spaniards that we were freed from the excessive authority of the Church that was once merged with the State.

My stance towards this issue is that we may never emerge this two but in the contrary, we cannot seperate them completely, I'm in between. One may not jive with the other but there is one thing for sure, it can seek for each of the other's opinion to achieve optimum enhancement for the benefit of mankind; or the Filipino People specifically. Remember, not all legal things are morally righteous and not all morally righteous are legal. One needs the other.

Ang taong walang magawa,,

Since bakasyon and I hate going out because it's sooooo hot outside, I'm solely staying at home. Of course I go out once in a while but not that frequent; usually, I just go out whenever my friends would wanna go somewhere and my mom allows me to use the car (occasionally lang, ang mahal kaya ng gas ngayon! at pera ko ang ginagamit ko...), whenever there is an important things that I have to check out at school, whenever I drop by the coffee shop and have a cup of Latte after visiting the chapel of Mt. Cramel ( nasanay nako.. nakakamiss ko tuloy **.. ) and whenever I go out biking for few kilometers for exercise and at the same time namamasyal (it's either in the morning or afternoon at about 6pm or so..iwas init... In fairness, masarap magdili-dili pag hapon.. I usually go sa park somewhere and sa LA PIETA!!! ).

INDICATIONS pag nasa bahay namin ako maghapon at walang magawa...

1.) Yung mga tinapay, laging may tira... (Few days ago, nag tuturuan sila kung sinong gumagawa nun, di nila alam na ako yun 'till I finally told them.. hahaha!)
2.) Mga baso ng tubig naka kalat sa bahay... sa study table ko, sa ibabaw ng piano, sa side ng Computer desk ko, sa living room, sa tabi ng TV, even sa CR ng room ko.. KASI KAYA ANG INIT!!!!!! laging nakakauhaw(not dehydrated, wrong term...)! In fairness ang 5gallons of water sa dispenser namin would only last for less than 2days! nilalagok ng mga tao sa bahay ang tubig!!!!!!
3.) Same as cups ng pinag-inuman ko ng COFFEE... naku... sobra din... I drink 3 cups in the morning and 3to4 cups before going to bed.. truly a coffee-addict in a severe case....
4.) Laging may nambubulabog sa buong bahay.... Pag katapos mag-piano, mag- eelectric guitar, after magsawa, TV, pag di pa nakontento, I would sing my heart out that the whole CITY~~~ would hear my irritating voice, then patugtog ng cds ko sa room, pag di pa rin na kuntento, mag Xbox na naka AUXILLARY na parang nayayanig ang buong bahay!
5.) Laging BUSY ang line that's why my dad's complaining why he can't get through the line at sa cellphone nalang xa tumatawag...
6.) Dictionary at mga libro (novels...) na naka-kalat sa bed at study table ko... Past time ko kasi sa tanghali para makatulog is reading... para masanay na rin for the coming years sa pag-aaral...
7.) Madaming T-shirt ko sa labahin... I change my shirt often..
8.) You can find alcohol almost sa lahat ng usually kong tambayan sa bahay. sa Room ko 2, isa bed, other on my desk, sa living room, isa din, and sa taas ng piano isa rin, all of them, usually ako lang ang gumagamit....
9.) Laging puno ang pale sa CR ko ng tubig... From time to time kasi, manerism ko na ang pag-huhugas ng paa... I feel uncomfortable pag di basa ang paa ko.. I know it's a very very bad habit kasi malalamigan yung paa ko or worse, ma papasma, but I just can't stop myself from doing so..
LASTLY,,,
10.) MATAAS ANG BILL!!!! AC pag tanghali, Xbox pag walang magawa, Tantra pag di pa nakuntento, On-line sa gabi at umaga, magtatawag ng makakausap pag walang makausap ng matino sa bahay, ung ampli ng guitar... Kaya nag-rereklamo na si Mama... hay....

the AfterMath

Self - check:

So how you've been for the last 24hrs.?
-Never been crazier.. Earlier today, I felt like I'm going out of my mind.. I almost cried and felt like something in me wants to shout so loud for the whole world to hear. I really wanted to let it out but the problem is I can't cry, my eyes has no more tears to cry.. In the contrary, it's my heart who cries and no one could hear it. In addition to that, my tummy also crumbles, I didn't ate dinner as well as lunch. It's just now that I noticed that I didn't ate rice the whole day through.

Still thinking of your ex?
-Yah.. that's the reason why I felt going insane earlier today. I think that's a hard thing to avoid. For the past 5 years I've been used to think of that person from time to time. It's like a hobby or rather a part of me already. But believe me, I'm trying to divert my attention to different things..

From the scale 1 to 10, can you tell how much you love your ex?
- No.. It can NEVER be scaled nor measured.. Coz' it's infinitive.. that it'll surpass all the numbers that ever existed..

Who is your "confidante" regarding this matter?
- Of course God, I feel somehow enlightened after praying... My bestfriend, who had never been tired of listening to me over and over.. (tanx a lot!) and my "other" special friend who kind of understands what exactly I am going through...

What are your plans in the coming days?
- First, I'm planning to buy new book/s coz' the Bob Ong book that I'm reading is almost finished, then tomorrow, since it's Sunday (family day), definitely, we're not in the house the whole day through coz' we'll be staying at lolo's house then, I've got all my plans for the next 2to3days.. Monday,I'll be going to school and I'll be getting my class cards and on Tuesday, got this day out with my friends playing badminton, and on Wednesday, reading day...

Lastly, what do you think of him/her now?
- Well, definitely, my ex don't give a damn anymore.. She's way too busy and enjoys her life too much to waste time on me. I think she's numb... And here I am.. Going crazy for that person who apparently don't care at all...

WISH FOR YOURSELF:
- I just hope, I'll get over this... hopefully in time...

learnings...

I was already finished reading book and I learned some few things from the dialogue of the characters that I'll never forget..

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it."

"Maktub" - an Arabic word which means "it is written"

"Something that had happened twice is bound to happen again."

Bluer than Blue...

I woke up and realize that everything in my life is blue..

My towel is blue,
My pajamas is blue(stripped with white),
My undies is blue(hehehe),
My room is painted blue,
My eyeglasses is framed blue,
My toothpaste is also blue(Close-up),
My toothbrush is also blue,
My mountain bike is also blue,
Most of my bags are blue,
Not to mention my CPU, it's also with color blue,
Same goes with my computer desk,
My cologne is also blue(Rain),
My perfume is blue as well(Hugo and Davidoff),
My bath gel is blue(and really smells good!!also a Hugo),

OF all these things,

UNFORTUNATELY,

I myself, also feels so Blue....

....

I logged in to my YM 9am,,,
I got this msg,,,
I'll never forget what she said,,,

msg nia @ (4/12/2005 8:42:44 AM): i dunno how to say this but right now, we both know that we are both in a new chapte of our lives and that we need to accept that we tried it two times and it's not working anymore.... give yourself a chance to love again and me, im happy being single.... as i've said to pearl, right now i think of all the things we both missed in our lives because we take our chances together and that i think we both missed ALOT... and so i think that as we are now in our parted-ways try to see what are the things we both missed... and the things we are about to miss if we are still together... just enjoy life... if ever man n magkaroon ka at magkaroon ako, that will be fair for both of us dahil wla na tayong sagutin sa isa't isa right....


msg nia @ (4/12/2005 8:44:03 AM): i know someone there is really for you and be with you for the rest of your life... i will still be here, always here for you if you need me.... as your friend.... so take care of yourself, and if you need me im just a text away.... take care now, and enjoy life....

msg nia @ (4/12/2005 8:47:10 AM): you konw that if talagang tayo tayo talaga, pero as of now, i dont think that phrase is capable of making us together again... and dami ng lumot ng relationship natin and this is hard to recover.... we just have to accept the fact that this time we need to part ways.... enjoy life.... and take care....


I replied: first of all, I'm sorry if you missed a lot in your life for the past few years because of me.The second time we got together, I expected a lot from you which I think is the reason why it didn't worked out. I thought you could do better than that, and I was very wrong. yah, we are now in our different roads, with different plans and wants.. I know, if we pushed harder, the more you'll just get tired of me.. To be honest, I felt like you just played with me last time. Jhu told me that you just got back with me bcoz you want to make amends for the things that had happened then. That it was hard for you to still be in the relationship. I was hurt you know? you could have told me more than anyone else in this entire universe. Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore. It's all in the past now. I asked God then to give me a chance to love you and after that, I'll be satisfied, and I'm thankful that He heard me but I forgot to be satisfied.. I should be contented now. I had some happiest memories behind me. And thank you for those.. All I ever wanted to do then is to love you and make you happy.There's nothing more I want for you than happiness.. even if it would hurt me.. You have your life without me, and me, i still have to pick up the pieces. This vacation is the perfect time for that. that's just it, maybe, I just really have to let the roads of our lives take us where we really are to go. If someday, we still end up together, I'd be the happiest person ever. But if not, I'll be happy for you whatever you make out of your life and me, I'll keep in mind that I was once happy and that I had to be satisfied with that.. Know that wherever you are, you're always in my head and heart. I'm always around, looking after you though you don't see me. I'll always be here for you to the best that I can... Love is never selfish.. You're free....

GENERAL CLEANING OF MAH RUM!

Just another day.. Last night, or should I say, just a while ago, I slept at 3am in the morning. basically, it is because I can't sleep. I had watched TV till my eyes popped out! ate every now and then as always.. Darn! that's what I hate during vacations! I eat a lot.. and start to lose track of my diet.. I woke up at 8am, as my daily routine, I cooked my own breakfast since my brothers and my mom went to lola's place and into the grocery. After I ate, I cleaned up my room.. it' s so dusty! it's seems ages ago since I had cleaned up! Got so busy with school and all.. That's why it's just by now that I had time to clean up.

At the same time, as a good habit, every semester, I gather all my Hand-outs in different subjectsand compile them altogether. I just thought that perhaps, one day, I'm going to need them.. There are "mountains", if Ishould say, of various xerox copies and notes, and tests... I just realized, those Xerox machine owners earn a lot because of us students. Haven't you thought of that? I could also remember that SNOBBISH, DARK , LITTLE, XEROX COPY GIRL that I really hate.. FEELING!!!!WE pay a lot then she'll nag any costumer she wants just like that! That's why at times, I'd rather move into another xerox shop rather than to talk to that SNOBBISH, DARK , LITTLE, XEROX COPY GIRL!!!A lot of the students allowance are spent in these papers... I can say, they are very useful to me! And in a way, I don't regret spending such for these pile of papers, but the question is that, ARE ALL STUDENTS USE THEM FOR THEIR STUDIES??? I mean, for about a year of being a president in my section and being in-charge of these pile of papers, some students don't use them in a good manner.. I also noticed that in High-school, whenever we were to have our exams, the xerox shops are filled with students who are all in a rush to have their other classmates' notes xeroxed. I admit, I'm one of those in high school, but as i could remember, most of the notes that I had xeroxed are in my math subject.. I remembered Ma'am Au Serabia shouting at me because I had slept along with Carl, my seatmate, during her class.. anyway, I learned something from her.. There was even a time, when it was the ONLY, take note, ONLY quiz that I had perfectedin her subject, and just because I had to forgot my name, she divided my score into 2!!! My tutor then was Mrs. Pangilinan along with my best bud. what a story...

So here I am now, sleepy but I'm about to take shower and go.. I'll meet my barkada at 4pm, we'll play badminton as usual, only the time was change because we'll be playing along with Jhu's sister. It's our 4th day this week I think.. I kept tracking my weight, still it had no difference at all.. Just the same... Till next time! CHOW!!!!!

ACCURATE infos,URGENT FOR BSN1-2(also for CON STUDENTS)

TO ALL BSNI STUDENTS:
Just a while ago, I had talked to our FORMER Level Coordinator, Ma'am Rosales (Ma'am Sy is in Manila.) about the RELEASING OF CLASS CARDS.. WALA PANG EXACT DATE.. APRIL 15, don't be mis informed, CHECKING LANG YUN IF OK NA BA ANG MGA GRADES.. I had also asked Ma'am Allapitan why is this so, and she says that it because some of our instructors haven't submitted the final grades.. (mind you, our college is handling many students,not only us, in addition to that, the upcoming freshmen students..) be patient enough.. just wait for further announcements.. or if sinisipag kayo, you can drop by our college office anytime.

TO ALL BSN STUDENTS OF ALL LEVEL:
ACCDG TO Mr. Carreon,
here are the ffg dates of our enrollment:
BSN 1----------------------- May 2 - May 20,2005
BSN 2(tayo 'toh)--------- May 9 - May 27,2005
BSN 3----------------------- May 30 - June 10,2005
BSN 4----------------------- May 30 - June 10,2005

TO ALL PHILO STUDENTS (ALL SECTIONS) under SIR BAROY:

A. HOPELESS CASE (Grade:70)
Blanco, Alexander Ferxez B.
Bognot, Katrina Carla S.
Canlas, Ma. Karen T.
Casupanan, Josephine C.
Cayanan, Raffy L.
Cordero, Cromwell L.
Cortez, Edgardo Jr. G.
De Guzman, Rea B.
Dela Rosa, Arwin G.
Dizon, Angelica Irene S.
Dizon, Grace-Lyn P.
Dizon, Roldan C.
Fernando, Diana Trisha M.
Ferrer, April Rose B.
Guina, Stephanie H.
Huricks, John David A.
Juco, Ed Jefferson L.
Lacson, Jenina D.
Luat, Ma. Abigael D.
Lumaking, Joycel G.
Mallari, Kristine Rae D.
Manalang, Mary Len B.
Manganti, Arlou Anne Klein S.
Manuel, Mary Joy B.
Mendoza, Christian E.
Miranda, Ivan Royce C.
Nunag, Nikka N.
Pelayo, Peter Jordan S.
Piad, Iris Chester R.
Pring, Zed Gene Carrol M.
Pulbos, Abigail Q.
Quiazon, Gracia Mia R.
Reyes, Realyn M.
Reyes, Rona M.
Reyes, Vincent Laurentte V.
Reynolds, Jacqueline V.
Rodriguez, Adrian D.
Salcedo, Cheryl T.
Salvador, Crissy Anne S.
Salvador, Jan Paolo DL.
Santiago, Mark Angelo L.
Simeon, Stephanie Kay D.
Smith, Ronald John R.
Soledad, Camille Nicola L.
Tan, Mark Angelo R.
Tatlonghari, Isah M.
Tiru, John Anthony S.
Yturralde, Harjay Louie Q.

B. THOSE WHO WILL RECEIVE A GRADE OF (INC):
Kindly see your instructor ASAP for your special exam.
Arceo, Kate I.
Agliam, Paula Jobelle E.
Almendral, Kenard C.
Anunciacion, Precious Ann P.
Aquino, Christian Dale G.
Audea, Niña Welsie B.
Austria, Mark Anthony P.
Batac, Reneanne A.
Bautista, Benedict E.
BERNARTE, Oliver G.
De Guia, Karla Eufrecina D.
De Guzman, Honeywell D.
De Guzman, Raniel T.
De Luna, Jay Michael V.
DIZON, Maria Carmela G.
Fernando, Marie Cristle B.
Forte, Tommy Arvin Q.
Franco, Suzerain B.
Gerona, Joana Marie O.
GERONIMO, Mar C.
Gomez, Jennifer R.
Gonzales, Russella Francesca G.
KAKEGAWA, John Paul T.
Lacson, Anna Victoria D.
Lansang, Paula Clarizze D.
LAUD, Joseph Ian N.
MANANSALA, Aldo M.
Maneja, Jinky V.
Mangio, Regine G.
MANITI, Derilee M.
Mariano, Cindy T.
Mendoza, Jean Rose G.
Meneses, Ramsey B.
Miclat, Jeffrone Jay C.
MORALES, Marjorie C.
Muñoz, Reina E.
Ocampo, Kassane Karl S.
Pangilinan, Ruth Easter R.
Parayo, Levy T.
PINEDA, Jeremiah F.
PORNILLOS, Carey M.
Robles, Arnelyn D.
Sanchez, Dale Tristan P.
SANTOS, Edleanne C.
Sarmiento, Julienne T.
Savirola, John Victor D.
Sibug, Corina Mae A.
Sto. Domingo, Gerard Dominic Y.
Supan, Dian Ross T.
Tayag, Tracy
TORRES, Garlian P.
Yumul, Ma. Louiza G.

also log on to Nicenet and Myspace for rechecking
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TO ALL BSN 1-2:
PLS SEE MRS GONZALES ASAP
Almendral
Dizon
Lacson
Maneja
Reyes
de Guzman, R.

THESE FFG PPOL SHOULD TAKE REMIDIAL CLASS TOM. 8 AM BIOCHEM
STUDENT NO.
045170
045012
045212
045605
045726
045996
045354

CoFfEe,, CoFfEe,,

March 19, 2005..

11pm,,

Coffee Overdose,,

with KC,,

She wanted me to keep this paper from this coffee shop..

Which says..

"YOU KNOW YOU'RE DRINKING TOO MUCH COFFEE WHEN..."

=instant coffee takes too long..

=You channel surf faster without remote.

=When someone asks you "how are you?", you say, "good TO THE LAST drop!"

=you want to be cremated just so you can spend the rest of eternity in a coffee can.

=you want to come back as a coffee mug in your next life..

=You'd be willing to spend time in a Turkish Prison (I say: that is bcoz they servegood coffee..)

=You go to sleep just so you can wake up and smell the coffee(I say: coffee keeps me awake!!)

=You name your cats and dogs "cream" and "Sugar" (I say: My dog's name is SADAM. but good point,next time, I'll name it Sugar...or coffee perhaps..)

=You get drunk just so you can sober up

=You speak in perfect Arabic without ever taking a lesson (I say:I can also speak FRENCH ANDCHINESE when I'm drunk!)

=Your thermos is on wheels.(I say: when taking exams, I wanted to bring along the thermos in my desk!)

=Your lips are permanently stuck in the sipping position. (I say:suck wat?? hehe!joke)

=You think CPR stands for "COFFEE PROVIDES RESUSCITATION" (I say: WATEVAH!)

Yet another DaY

woah!!! another day has passed again... everyday, I wake up in the morning, wondering,"What can I do today?".. wake up from my bed, wash my face, brush my teeth, cook Breakfastfor myself,take a shower at about 9am, go out and meet my barkada and play badminton till 3pm, go home, sleep, eat dinner ( a soup and 2pcs of bread.. ), watch TV (I really don't watch soaps ontv but everybody else here does, so it's like i don't have choice! but anyways, I enjoy naman, specially the Full House, though I watched the final part already.), go back to my room,wash my face, brush my teeth, and sit infront of my PC, till i finally fall asleep.. at the endof the day, one question always pops-out of mah head, and that is, asking myself "what have Idone the whole day?"...

AS of today, aside from my daily routine, I have driven again to and fro Magalang for the Tea of my lolo(mother's side..)Have almost finished the book i'm reading(the alchemist), had a bunch of laughs (tanx to MelanieMarquez!),ate fruits (watermelon, mouth watering unripe mangoes with bagoong, apples and orange.),ate cadbury, (My mouth cannot stop eating!), and of course, thought of my ex... a lot as usual...

My activities for tomorrow are all lined up! I'm going to drop my lolo (this time my father's side.)to his barber to have his hair trimmed "para daw gwapo pag umuwi" sa Tita Glenda koh as what Mom had said... then going to school, check out details for the claiming of cards and also checking of the failed students..(my classmates I mean,, Kitam, though the semester is over, istill have obligations to my section.. anyways, it's just fine.. SOMEHOW, they would remember me as responsible officer!diba?? ), I'll be posting them here.. since my PC isn't functioning well, I have to go out to surf the net (I hate it when my PC caughts virus!It happens all the time!then i have to let a PC technician reformat it over and over! PARENG MIKE,TULONG NAMAN!

I'm quite enjoying this vacation kahit sa house lang.. not going anywhere.. like my recent vacations specially when we were still in Cavite and my dad works for the WG&A co., eventhoughI just stay at home this summer, I could say, I'm lucky already to have been able to travel tosome places like Isabela, Masbate, Ormoc, Palawan(El Nido),and some places before.. I mean, not all people are that lucky, I'm just an average and not RICH person from a simple Family. Tanx to my dad's work then. WE were free from any expenses! even our food and accomodations..

If there's a thing that I want to achieve this vacation, that is certainly.. Peace Of Mind..This is my first summer without the person that really mattered to me.. which makes me sad naturally as what any other lover would feel.. I'm trying my best to make something out of this COLD SUMMER NIGHTs(as the song says),like I wanna know myself more and be contented with what was behind us.. (for crying out loud Gaylord! You should be contented now!).. I had thought of thatperson so much every now and then,, (my ex i mean..) I had promised, It'll always be that person..and that'll never change.. I am loyal to my words..even if it would hurt me,, perhaps, i could learn how to be numb.. It's almost 2am, guess I just to sleep away these thoughts.. I still have to get up early tomorrow!and do a lot of things! goodmorning!!

P.S.> I also want to grab a glass of Latte 2morow, go to carmelite and pray for the pope's soul,and go for a quiet 5pm walk on the Villa Angela park...Miss my ex a lot...

Badminton day2

My body aches! Grabeh, 2day straight playing badminton with my friends and all my joints and muscles are cramped! (tumatanda na ata ako e!) my ass, my hips, my arms and legs! GOSH! Actually, my mom wanted us to swim daily! Me and my brothers, at least 20 laps a day.. I could say, my brother really needs it! Anyway, it’s been a while since I have posted something new here! For some reasons, I was quite busy with my final requirements, and with our visitor, My Aunt Lyn and my cousin and Uncle James.

On the first few days after my final exams, I had watched a lot of DVDs, one after the other. And I enjoyed them! Some of them is The Jacket, the Hitch, The Aviator, Son of the Mask, Garden State, The hostage, and so much more! There’s another movie that I wanna see, this time I wanna see it in a cinema and that is Miss Congeniality2.

Been thinking so much of my grades.. of what could be the results of my finals.. ever since the mid term exam till this finals, I could say my studies were greatly affected by what happened to me last January.. My Zoology is quite good, I suppose, but not my Biochem, I doubt IT!!! Most of the question that turned out on my exams weren’t the ones that I had studied! GRRRrrrr! But anyway, Prayer is the only solution I guess, I gave my best despite of the great depression I feel inside that I had tried to ignore many many times! i know I have to get over it now… as in now, or else, I don’t think so that I could concentrate more on my subjects for my 2nd year…

if... if..

If I were a month I would be...
-> December,, the atmosphere is nice,,

If I were a day of the week I would be...

->Saturday! got nothing to do at all!

If I were a time of day I would be...
--> 12 mn,, I will transform into a warewolf! harrr...

If I were a planet I would be...

--> Pluto,, the furthest of all!

If I were a sea animal I would be...
--> corals.. so that I could be of help to some other sea creatures!

If I were a direction I would be...

-> east..

If I were a sin I would be...

-> L.. u// s'' T>> very tempting!

If I were a liquid I would be...

-> cold water! that can cool you down!

If I were a tree I would be...
-> acacia! to provide shade for travelers

If I were a bird I would be...

-> ADARNA!! hehe! joke! rather, Love bird or parrot that can sing.. to take away d' stress of people

If I were a tool I would be...

-> chainSaw!!! CUT.. cut... CUT!!!

If I were a flower I would be...

-> a rose.. loved by lovers.. esp the ladies

If I were a kind of weather I would be...
-> rainy weather,, people would wanted to be home and sleep all day long!

If I were a musical instrument, I would be...

-> EVERYTHING! as long as it creates good music!That's why tho i know how to play the guitar and the piano, still i want to learn how tho play other instruments..

If I were an animal, I would be...
-> BEAR!!! Big and Mighty!

If I were a color, I would be...

-> blue.. very appealing color(aside fr red of course!) and signifies mystery and strength

If I were an emotion, I would be...
-> rage! too much anger...

If I were a vegetable, I would be...

-> broccoli and cauliflower and potatoes

If I were a song, I would be...
-> over and over by 'neLLy'.. best song to describe my life now..

If I were a movie, I would be

-> City of Angels... like Nicholas' character,, ready to sacrifice eternity for the one i love

If i were i sport, I would be
-> SOCCER SIEMPRE!

.....

At last, our final exams for this semester is over. Kaso nga lang, I have to do my thesis for our Filipino project tomorrow. In addition to that, GOSH! I choose to take another exam for my Zoology, I wasn’t quite satisfied with my score that’s why. It just came into my mind just by now, still I can’t enjoy my weekends. Thought I could watch DVDs this weekend! Hmp! Anyway, I just hope that my grades in other subject were good..

ThE CoFfeE aDdiCt

it's already 2am in the morning, still i'm not yet sleeping.(hello?? isn't it obvious!you're typing on your Computer!)I can tell that the neurons of my brain is activated by the great amount of caffein that i just had ingest!I guess I had drank at least 10 cups of black coffee eversince 9pm last night. I had finished 1subject (reviewing, I mean) for the finals and right now, the connection here is VERY VERY VERYSLOWWWWWWWWW..... It's like an hour or so before a page is fully down loaded.. I wanna play Tantra on-line pa naman! Grrrrr.... This is one of my stressful holy week EVER in my entire life..I can't enjoy it, got lot of things to do, my PC is, i supposed, somehow broke, and i'm kinda nervous for the finals, i don't know, but thisis the second time that i really felt not quite ready for it, or maybe, WLA LANG AKONG GANANGMAG-ARAL...just like last term, i know, i did no good on my exams! well, i can't turn back the hands of time..nangyari na e!

still can't sleep, it's 2.30am na... i don't know wat to do now, the connection still remains slow.. my messenger cannot connect! i thought i can finish uploadingmy web yesterday, but, nah, i didn't ! i just hate it when i put up deadlines to myself and i can't finish 'em up on time!

Last Wednesday, My mom asked me to drive her to Magalang. The traffic was really terrible! Butanyways, I enjoyed driving, that was my longest drive, from San Fernando to Magalang. Kaso nga lang,I can't forget what happend to the lady who was hit by a counter-flowing tricyle. Kahit na Trike lang yun, kawawa yung nabundol! i saw what had happened... kasalanan ng Trike! One of the thingsthat I hate in our country streets are the IMPATIENT, HOT-TEMPERED, "SIGA" drivers of any kindof vehicles! Specifically the Tricycles! the lady was tagging along her 3-year old child and on herarms was a less than a year old baby.. Thank God, the children wasn't hurt much, lalo na yung baby..On the other hand, kawawa din' yung nanay, I saw her left leg na nanlupaypay.. It seems like it wasfractured.. very dreadful scenario! biruin mo ba naman, sa side na kotse nangyari. I didn't freakedout but my mom did.. (hay, mga babae talaga...) Well, i just hope that the lady is duin fine now.

3am na, still can't sleep! but my head hurts.. It's sleepy already but my eyes won't sleep.. Tita's arriving later along with my cousin Brandon from Malaysia.. I could remember his fatty bumm-bumm!just like mine!(laughs) They come back here once in awhile to check out on my lola.. I miss her too..

TaLe oF mY WeeKend FeVeR,,,

Well, it’s holy week na. May people realize the real essence of this season. I had a wonderful weekend, though very tired! Last Friday, a friend celebrated her debut. Earlier that morning, I had fever. My tonsils are swollen. I didn’t practiced for our P.E. day. Somehow I still managed to be there. Pareng Mike, thanks for fetching me. Angelli again, I’m sorry if I didn’t sang as like what I’ve promised. Anyway, I was chilling during the program, my lips were trembling because I felt really cold though I was wearing a long sleeves. After the debut, we went to Partyplace, drank a couple of bottle, played billiards, and watched the band with a couple of gorgeous vocalist. I felt better after that, then we finally went home. I guess I got into bed at almost 3 in the morning. Mom really waited for me. The next day, I still have my fever by the way, we had competition of the dance contest, luckily though I didn’t practiced the day before, we won! Many people were surprised when they saw me dancing (perhaps, they just don’t know I can dance too, all around ako noh!). I really didn’t enjoyed because of the fact that I really don’t like my partner, he isn’t supposed to be my partner anyway!!! But when I saw the crowd and the people cheering for us, well, I had the urged to give all I have, and somehow, it paid off. We won as I’ve said. Just one thing I hated that moment, we won and I haven’t seen the trophy TILL NOW!!!! Nor touched it! After that, I went home at about 2pm, and slept till 5pm, I was ought to go back to school for the culminating night of our college and we were supposed to meet at 5pm. Good thing she went to her dent and she was late too, kundi, it’s very embarrassing. Past 5pm, she rang me up and woke me, I took bath fast so that I would just be waiting for her at school, she ask me to wait for her to finish dressing up before I would leave the house, and it almost took an hour.(I ain’t complaining pero bakit matagal? I always wondered, lalo na mga girls na pkikay..) anyway, she called back at bout 6pm, I left home, and my friends, lei with ken, and IC with Mark, were already there waiting for us. But still she isn’t still there. For the next 30 minutes, I stood at the front gate waited for her, “nasa telabastagan na kami” , I felt excited seeing her and I know in myself that I never felt as excited as like that, the last person made feel like that is K, KP I mean since they’re both K. I waited and just our of the blue, WOW!! The wait was worth it! I was mesmerized with her! The first thing she told me was “pasensya na” and the only word came out of me, was “ok lang.” I almost said, “ok lang, maganda ka naman!!”.. so there, we went in, me with her, mark with IC, and Lei with Ken. I can feel that my friends were kinda worried for me, for they know what I have gone through with my past. I admit, I still love her, and what I feel for that person I was with that night was just, well perhaps, infatuation. Still haven’t told her that I like her. The common factor about us is that we both went through the same painful experience, her boo left her for another gal in Manila and I was also left by mine but I don’t know why… but his ex still has connections with her. Anyway, I just like her, I don’t love her okei?? That’s what I always wanted to make clear.. the next few hours, we enjoyed our dinner, the band and by about quarter to 11, we both went out, and dropped by the coffee shop nearby the university because I promised her to take out for coffee before her Kuya fetches her. As usual, we talked bout our ex.. she even asked me to keep the coffee tissue for remembrance. and then when her kuya arrived, hinatid ko siya. And I went back inside the campus, the party was almost over, then as usual, before I went home, I guess that was bout 12midnight, I enjoyed a quiet walk from the church to the 7-11 store nearby, grab a bottle of water, and I simply felt happy.. then I went to the open internet shop, surf for bout an hour, then I went home, as usual, 2am! And I still have my fever.. but I’m happy inside, I know…

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time,
That I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for more.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I’d hear you voice lifted up in praise,
I would capture each action and word.
So I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well’ I’m sure you’ll have so many more,
So I can let this one slip away.

I’ll love you for always,
And I mean it from my heart,
Deeply into you I fell,
But when you we’re gone my heart fell apart.

But if it’s too late for us,
Around you, I’ll always be,
Always with you, my heart and mind,
‘till the end of my life I’ll find.