For how many days now, I've been trying to sleep early as I could but then again, still I can't, it even got worse than I thought. I slept at usually past 12 like 1 or 2am, but now, I sleep at 5am.. Early isn't it? I just can't sleep.. I hope I'm not an insomiac person(but I think I am).. I slept at 4:00am watching the live coverage of the CNN on the conclave and the announcement of the new pope yesterday and my mom woke me up at 6:30am to drive for her to the market with my tita. So I drove, though a quarter of my mind's still soooo sleepy. Thank God nothing bad happened along the way but I know, I was not quite in the mood to drive coz' I feel so drowsy.. and after going to the market, I went back to sleep. 9:30-1:00pm, I slept, then ate lunch, and 2:30-7:00pm I slept again and just woke up because of the phone that rang beside my bed.. "What a lousy driver!" I thought myself...
Perhaps, I couldn't sleep well everynight maybe because of the things I don't want to think about much. Many questions, many things that I'm trying to avoid..
It rained a while ago. And I just thought, perhaps the rain could answer the questions of my mind, that even I don't know what are. So I went out, stared at the dome of darkness, I wanted to shout though.. but I can't. Instead, I just kept questioning the rain in silence and it just answered me through it's heavy raindrops, and several blows of wind. With every raindrop that fell from above, every raindrop seemed heavy. With every heavy drops that touched my skin, every heavy drop felt so cold. and With every drop that fell into the ground,
my heart could hear every heavy raindrop that shatters my heart into pieces. For 20minutes, it was all raindrops and light winds that eventually made my knees and lips somehow shiver but still I wasn't quite satisfied. Instead of giving answers, the rain and the wind just gave me far more deeper questions.. Uknown questions with yet unknown answers.. I never felt so cold like that, with nobody(/no body) to keep me warm and give me warmth.. with nobody to give me warmth.. I never felt so cold.. I never felt so alone... ; When it rains, it pours..
Perhaps, I couldn't sleep well everynight maybe because of the things I don't want to think about much. Many questions, many things that I'm trying to avoid..
It rained a while ago. And I just thought, perhaps the rain could answer the questions of my mind, that even I don't know what are. So I went out, stared at the dome of darkness, I wanted to shout though.. but I can't. Instead, I just kept questioning the rain in silence and it just answered me through it's heavy raindrops, and several blows of wind. With every raindrop that fell from above, every raindrop seemed heavy. With every heavy drops that touched my skin, every heavy drop felt so cold. and With every drop that fell into the ground,
my heart could hear every heavy raindrop that shatters my heart into pieces. For 20minutes, it was all raindrops and light winds that eventually made my knees and lips somehow shiver but still I wasn't quite satisfied. Instead of giving answers, the rain and the wind just gave me far more deeper questions.. Uknown questions with yet unknown answers.. I never felt so cold like that, with nobody(/no body) to keep me warm and give me warmth.. with nobody to give me warmth.. I never felt so cold.. I never felt so alone... ; When it rains, it pours..
"With every raindrop that fell from above,
every raindrop seemed heavy.
With every heavy drops that touched my skin,
every heavy drop felt so cold.
and With every drop that fell into the ground,
my heart could hear every heavy raindrop that shatters my heart into pieces."
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