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I logged in to my YM 9am,,,
I got this msg,,,
I'll never forget what she said,,,

msg nia @ (4/12/2005 8:42:44 AM): i dunno how to say this but right now, we both know that we are both in a new chapte of our lives and that we need to accept that we tried it two times and it's not working anymore.... give yourself a chance to love again and me, im happy being single.... as i've said to pearl, right now i think of all the things we both missed in our lives because we take our chances together and that i think we both missed ALOT... and so i think that as we are now in our parted-ways try to see what are the things we both missed... and the things we are about to miss if we are still together... just enjoy life... if ever man n magkaroon ka at magkaroon ako, that will be fair for both of us dahil wla na tayong sagutin sa isa't isa right....


msg nia @ (4/12/2005 8:44:03 AM): i know someone there is really for you and be with you for the rest of your life... i will still be here, always here for you if you need me.... as your friend.... so take care of yourself, and if you need me im just a text away.... take care now, and enjoy life....

msg nia @ (4/12/2005 8:47:10 AM): you konw that if talagang tayo tayo talaga, pero as of now, i dont think that phrase is capable of making us together again... and dami ng lumot ng relationship natin and this is hard to recover.... we just have to accept the fact that this time we need to part ways.... enjoy life.... and take care....


I replied: first of all, I'm sorry if you missed a lot in your life for the past few years because of me.The second time we got together, I expected a lot from you which I think is the reason why it didn't worked out. I thought you could do better than that, and I was very wrong. yah, we are now in our different roads, with different plans and wants.. I know, if we pushed harder, the more you'll just get tired of me.. To be honest, I felt like you just played with me last time. Jhu told me that you just got back with me bcoz you want to make amends for the things that had happened then. That it was hard for you to still be in the relationship. I was hurt you know? you could have told me more than anyone else in this entire universe. Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore. It's all in the past now. I asked God then to give me a chance to love you and after that, I'll be satisfied, and I'm thankful that He heard me but I forgot to be satisfied.. I should be contented now. I had some happiest memories behind me. And thank you for those.. All I ever wanted to do then is to love you and make you happy.There's nothing more I want for you than happiness.. even if it would hurt me.. You have your life without me, and me, i still have to pick up the pieces. This vacation is the perfect time for that. that's just it, maybe, I just really have to let the roads of our lives take us where we really are to go. If someday, we still end up together, I'd be the happiest person ever. But if not, I'll be happy for you whatever you make out of your life and me, I'll keep in mind that I was once happy and that I had to be satisfied with that.. Know that wherever you are, you're always in my head and heart. I'm always around, looking after you though you don't see me. I'll always be here for you to the best that I can... Love is never selfish.. You're free....