the AfterMath

Self - check:

So how you've been for the last 24hrs.?
-Never been crazier.. Earlier today, I felt like I'm going out of my mind.. I almost cried and felt like something in me wants to shout so loud for the whole world to hear. I really wanted to let it out but the problem is I can't cry, my eyes has no more tears to cry.. In the contrary, it's my heart who cries and no one could hear it. In addition to that, my tummy also crumbles, I didn't ate dinner as well as lunch. It's just now that I noticed that I didn't ate rice the whole day through.

Still thinking of your ex?
-Yah.. that's the reason why I felt going insane earlier today. I think that's a hard thing to avoid. For the past 5 years I've been used to think of that person from time to time. It's like a hobby or rather a part of me already. But believe me, I'm trying to divert my attention to different things..

From the scale 1 to 10, can you tell how much you love your ex?
- No.. It can NEVER be scaled nor measured.. Coz' it's infinitive.. that it'll surpass all the numbers that ever existed..

Who is your "confidante" regarding this matter?
- Of course God, I feel somehow enlightened after praying... My bestfriend, who had never been tired of listening to me over and over.. (tanx a lot!) and my "other" special friend who kind of understands what exactly I am going through...

What are your plans in the coming days?
- First, I'm planning to buy new book/s coz' the Bob Ong book that I'm reading is almost finished, then tomorrow, since it's Sunday (family day), definitely, we're not in the house the whole day through coz' we'll be staying at lolo's house then, I've got all my plans for the next 2to3days.. Monday,I'll be going to school and I'll be getting my class cards and on Tuesday, got this day out with my friends playing badminton, and on Wednesday, reading day...

Lastly, what do you think of him/her now?
- Well, definitely, my ex don't give a damn anymore.. She's way too busy and enjoys her life too much to waste time on me. I think she's numb... And here I am.. Going crazy for that person who apparently don't care at all...

WISH FOR YOURSELF:
- I just hope, I'll get over this... hopefully in time...